Being a bad muslim in my past, i always hav an excuse like why n why i cant perform solat to myself nor my dad. Sho stupid reason such as "rasa kotor", baju kotor, xnak share telekung at mussola, surau kotorlah, busuklah and etc...until ive been tested a BIG time from Him. Ive religiously start to perfom solat, solat mlm, start jejakkan kaki ke masjid (like historical kan huhu) imagine the last time im praying at masjid was during my schooling time tupun time terawikh je but then i still refuse using wakaf telekung hehe (for hyigene ka? watever crap reason from me)
Its all started after my holy trip, im purposely planning to celebrate eid dul fitri in Mecca last year, i just wana maximize the keberkatan Ramadhan di sacred place, was hoping to hit the lailatul qada in Mecca is my biggest dream ever as i wish our dear Allah will fulfill my "soo many" wish ni huhu. At first my dad disagree with the idea, and scolding me for this extra spending (for your info the umrah fees at end ramadhan with raya can cost at least additional 2k compare tu normal period). At that time i was like; trying my very best to persuade him, "pa, pls let me go as tis is wat i want, ayu just nk keberkatan, more afdal, more etc etc at the correct moment, i want to hit the lailatul qada there bla bla bla..lagipun tis money ayu dh niat for my umrah" (this money referring to sum of money tat already put aside from my saving for this purpose). I guess my dad became cair n said yes! (igt keberkatan dari restu parents itu sgt penting! Chup ini pesanan utk diri sendiri yg slalu alpa huhu).
So then my life changed; 360 degrees, physically, mentally all lah. In Mecca peoples including me used to pray in everywhere, u named it, ats tar yg panas, beside tong sampah, simen panas, himpit himpit, sesak sesak between armpit, atas tangga, midland staircase, roof top while birds nicely landing beside u when u ruqu, noboday cares, nobody bothers but lovingly prayed for the name of Him! Such a peaceful feeling that u cant buy, the experience u must try. But its all worth as when im back from the trip, im no longer being vain and freaking solat concious! like yay coz after tat i can pray anywhere using any cloth as long as covering my aurat!
Tis pic taken in spore yesterday at 8.03pm somewhere beside mrt station between walkway n longkang, beralaskan sapu tangan tis man fulfill a duty as hamba Allah, air mata sy menitis while passing by him, the memory in Al-haram start flashing back, mulianya dan indahnya Islam ya Allah~semoga tuhan menetapkan imanku dan iman kalian semua...amin
Rindu di sana :(
Kesimpulanya: yay nay! No excuse for not performing solat, Islam itu mudah, ada qasar ada jamak, (jamak n qasar tak sama!!! Sila rujuk ustaz apa beza? Bile bole jamak? Bile bole qasar? Jgn men sebarang je!) tepuk dada tanya imanmu wahai cik ayu!
Ikhlas,
Yg sentiasa berdosa
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